Other people could be different in feeling their ways around me, but for what?

The bunk beds, narrow with brown duvets, spotted in yellow and orange. Lying awake at night, cry quiet so no=one can hear.

Here.

A retard, I have birthed a fucking retard. His speech, sometimes, difficult and confusing as he slips and clips from one scene to another in stuttered none formed. But we can't say it. I can't say it. To you or anyone else. My son, inside his head, he dies a little every time.

I could scream a tantrum, eat broken glass, chew on shit and chitting cuddles.

Oh sniggles me baby in lost consonants. H A A HA.

Fuck you, for lost times and fast lives. Oh yes, CV, achievements pari parasu.

I (pause)
Still light up like a candle burning.

Why
Oh why me?
Not allowed thought
in anywhere, why anything, why did he beat me?

NASTY PIECE OF WORK

In my last years with him there were bruises on my face.

No-one
Like
Nothing
NMot silence
Dense
Truth and other enigmas
The Archaeology of violence.

Crumbs
Everything just smears and crumbs
Same word bad writing
What's this shit#
Scip over
Hoppety hop
Topsy and Tim.

The smell
Remembered from countless hosptials ITC
Fathers dying
Drowning in their own phlegm
The only thing you know how to bring up is phlegm.

I want the sun
Any warmth that isn't fire
Lost
Make me know the way
Someone give me a map or compass.

Fyck you

Fyck iGod
This isn't a manusciprt

?It's thje onlgongst fyuckikng suicide note in history

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cOULD 6YOU scream this
Iain't giving you shit
Wordyt [p;ay plat
play

Down here in reality everyone knows there's no such thing
I can't take no more
So long
Everyb9doy

Freedom
There ain't know fucking freedom
Jesus
It jusdt ain't never going to work.

I want to go to the place where Artaud will fuck me from dawn to dusk in a blue roomed muslin, not loving oh sweet gentle luvely thang of last kisses and strokes.

Fuck it
Maker it go away
Someone
Please
Make it go away
Please
Please
Make it stop
Dadddy
Make it stop
Daddy
Pleasre
Sto[ ot.
Please
Pkease

No stronger word to will..