I was told to distance myself from my old friends.  I was told I should leave parties early and arrive late.  I liked to hear the stories of people who slept in cars; in addition any theft, injury, or jail stories interested me since I myself had never broken the law outside of driving.  Betsey had a wonderful story about stealing money from a john.  Another man whom I'll never forget told a story about fucking an Indian when he was a merchant marine then killing him and throwing the body overboard.  There was absolute silence in the room after he told us this, we were in a high school gymnasium.  He said, I guess the statute of limitations ran out on that.

 

 

october  november

There were two shows I liked to watch on television, both on Thursday night, and I taped one and watched the other until the first one got cancelled.  She didn't watch either show, she only pretended to read.  Let's say our novena, she said.  I loved her low growly voice and then I got tired of it and then I didn't notice it until someone new commented about it.  It was something people commented about.