Long after: P. LaFarge, "The Artist of the Missing." New York, 1999. p.11. (One word has been substituted.)

sick of the city: R.D. Skilling, "Issac Babel." TriQuarterly 58. Fall, 1983. p.27.

Provincetown: "Provincetown is a tolerant and fatalistic town, that over the years has been pummeled by all the furies---storms, foreign invasions, and sandy avalanches. Time and again it has been discovered anew, manly because it is geographically remote. It reaches twenty-five miles into the Atlantic Ocean,situated on the land's end of Cape Cod---as well as Massachusetts. 'Hard to get to and get out of,' wrote (Eugene) O'Neill in 1917 from his Provincetown home." L.R. Egan, Provincetown As a Stage. Orleans, MA., 1994. p.xiii.

Madison Avenue: I was the Assistant Traffic Manager at Monroe Greenthal Advertising. Accounts included movie companies (Universal, United Artists, et al.), theaters, along with real estate interests. A few years after I resigned Monroe died on the golf course.

stoned eyes: J. Weishaus. From, "Fourteen Brooklyn Poems." Written during three-month stay in New York City.

God's Eye Theater: The God's Eye Theater was located on Frederick, near Stanyon, Street. The was owned by Michael Hamburger.

to his final: R.S. Liebert, Michelangelo--A Psychoanalytic Study of His Life and Images. New Haven, 1983. p.412.

This same: See, D.H. Rosen, "Suicide Survivors: A Follow-up Study of Persons Who Survived Jumping from the Golden Gate and San Francisco-Oakland Bay Bridges." Western Journal of Medicine. April 1975. Also, "Suicide Survivors: Psychotherapeutic Implications of Egocide." Paper presented at the 8th International Congress on Suicide Prevention. Jerusalem, October 21, 1976.

Sam Rivers: "In the fall of 1956, I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I decided to go to Miami. Billie Holliday was there...After work everyone would go to the Sir John Motel to jam until 8 or 9 in the morning. I played next to Billie...Then I had an attack, broke out in cold sweat, felt faint. Billie noticed and told me to go outside...When I came back she was singing Detour Ahead. (H. Ellis, L. Carter, J. Frigo. Billie Holiday recorded Detour Ahead for Aladdin Records in New York City, April 29, 1951.) I listened to the anguish in her voice and the lyrics seemed to be about my own problems. I started to cry," In, N. Hentoff, Jazz Is. New York, 1976. p.16. Sam Rivers went on to play with such notables as Miles Davis, and became one of the most inventive musicians of our time.

stares: Géza Róheim "explains that (Athena) is the inventor of a type of flute used in war and said to imitate the hissing of the serpents produced when Perseus severs Medusa's head." T. Siebers, The Mirror of Medusa. Berkeley, 1983. p.16.

Yes, my brother: W. Whitman. From, "Out of the Cradle Endlessly Rocking."

feet: A. Jodorowsky, El Topo: A book of the Film by Alexandro Jodorowsky. New York, 1971.

a doorway: Prem Das. In, J. Halifax, Shamanic Voices: A Survey of Visionary Narratives. New York, 1979. "Another footnote from Eliade's book (Shamanism): 'The motif of doors that open for the initiated and remain open only a short time is quite frequent in shamanic and other legends...' An image of stargates in the brain?" M. Murphy, Jacob Atabet. Millbrae, CA., 1977.

at the end of August: I had to report for six months of active duty with the Army Reserve, Combat Engineers. The young man who owned the hearse, a student at Princeton University, said, "Why do you want to go into the Army?" I didn't.

met her in Provincetown: J. Weishaus. "Of  Her Dreaming."

Vasulka's: Woody Vasulka (Bohuslav Peter) was born in Brno, Czechoslovakia, 1937. In 1965, he and his wife, Steina, moved to New York City, where they became pioneers in analogue Video Art. The Vasulkas presently reside in Santa Fe, NM.

Phil Whalen: Born in Portland, Oregon, October 20, 1923, At Reed College, Whalen roomed with poets Gary Snyder and Lew Welch. The most "postmodern" of the Beats, he is presently a Zen Monk, living in San Francisco.

a beautiful little place: Rolling Thunder. In, D. Boyd, Rolling Thunder. New York, 1978. p.195. Boyd continues, "Rolling thunder 'recognized' this place. He knew that in the old days medicine men would come have to find herbal medicines with special powers that grew nowhere else. This was one of the 'energy centers' of the body of the earth." (Ibid., p.196.)

Bolinas home: John Doss was a San Francisco physician. After taking LSD, for the next year his practice consisted of walking the beach. When asked what he was doing, Dr. Doss said, "I'm rearranging my molecules." Margot Patterson Doss was a columnist for the San Francisco Chronicle. She published several books on walking tours of the Bay Area. Their house in Bolinas was a center for visits by the Beat Poets, politicians, physicians, and assorted interesting people.

I am still alive: P. Whalen. From, "Plum, Metaphysics, An Investigation, A Visit, and A Short Funeral Ode."

circumambulation: Gary Snyder's note for his poem, "The Circumambulation of Mt. Tamalpais": "This poem is for Philip Whalen and Allen Ginsberg.

charismatic: "Charisma in classical antiquity meant exactly what it does in the pagan mass media: glamour, a Scottish word signifying, as Kenneth Burke points out, a magic 'haze in the air.' around persons or things." C. Paglia, Sexual Personnea. New York, 1990. p.521.

modern man: M. Foucault.

his whole career: Said to me during a dinner at the Gary and Masa's Snyders' temporary home on a parcel of private land on Mt. Tamalpais, before they moved to Kitkitdizze, near Nevada City, CA. The house was furnished Japanese style. The windows had a device that made it look like it was raining outside. Snyder said that the owner, an architect, had designed it to persuade his women guests to spend the night.

Ettawa Springs: Located in Lake Co., CA., about 100 miles north of San Francisco, ten miles out of Middletown, on a back road. The cabin and its 160 acres of Oak and Pine was owned by Dr. & Mrs. O.W. Hills of San Mateo, CA.

O I am happy: A. Ginsberg. From, "Today."

holes in a fish net: J. Weishaus, "Earth: A Basket." Written in Lake Co., CA., home of the Pomo Indians, noted for their superb basket making.

I wrote to Bob Callahan (30 Oct 74), who was publishing Jaime de Angulo's
"Old Time Stories," adaptations of Lake County and Miwok myths. Callahan
referred me to Henry Maudlin, an independent scholar living in Lakeport.
In reply to my inquiry Mr. Mauldin wrote, "At my home is 7,000 pages of typed
history of Lake County, much of it to do with the subjects (local Indian Culture)
you mentioned above. To find one's way around these pages of typed material
there is 16,000 index cards which make it easy to find what one wants..."

non-hierarchical: R. Bogue, Deleuze and Guattari. London, 1989. p.107

a constant dialogue: D. Boyd, Rolling Thunder. New York, 1974. p.117

gray Jewish: J. Weishaus, "Sam the Sufi."

tumbling: J. Weishaus. From, "Four Block Poems."

I see: M. McClure. From, "THE BLOSSOM, or Billy the Kid."

buried in an abyss: D. Hoffman, Chronicles of Cartaphilus, the Wandering Jew. London, 1853. In, J. Gaer, The Legend of the Wandering Jew. New York, 1961. pp.25-6.

skeletons: "in certain Central Asian meditations that are Buddhistic and tantric in origin, or at least in structure, reduction to the skeleton condition has, rather, an ascetic and metaphysical value anticipating the work of time, reducing life by thought to what it really is, an ephemeral illusion in perpetual transformation." M. Eliade, Shamanism. Princeton, NJ., 1963. p. 63

Sweetwater's: A thriving business that served the north side of the University of New Mexico, and where I would have coffee several mornings a week.  Rather than renew its lease, the university leveled it to make a parking lot.

roughly: G. Hartley, Textual Politics and the Language Poets. Bloomington, IN., 1989. p.2.

Straight Theater: Located on Haight St., near Golden Gate Park, a former movie house, along with the Fillmore Auditorium it hosted some of the first plugged-in Rock & Roll bands in San Francisco.

I wandered: H. Rheingold, Excursions to the Far Side of the Mind. New York, 1988. p.24.

Joyce was dictating: A.M. Bork, "Randomness and the Twentieth Century." Antioch Review. Spring, 1967. pp.47-8.

Whether or not: G. Leonard, The Ultimate Athlete. New York, 1975. p.253. Morhei Uyeshiba, O-Sensei (Honorable Teacher), was the founder of Aikido.

the only thing: M.W. Browne, "Gravity Waves May Echo First Moments of Universe." New York Times, 14 April 93. p.A10

There are times: C.G. Jung told a story about visiting the Baptistry of the Orthodox in Ravenna, with Toni Wolff. The Baptistry "was filled with a bluish light, though there was no artificial lighting." Then they saw "beautiful mosaics" on all sides, of about 12X16 ft, each depicting a baptism scene.
Soon after they had returned home, "C.A. Meier was going to Italy and C.G. told him to be sure to visit Ravenna and see these mosaics...When Dr. Meier returned from Italy he told C.G. that he had gone to the Baptistry in Ravenna but that there were no mosaics there of the kind he had described. Here was an experience which two people had, yet how to explain it quite defeated him--he had no suggestion to offer." E.A. Bennet, Meetings with Jung. Zürich 1985. pp.80-1.

More ordinary: "(Henri) Michaux does not search in the abnormal as an end in itself, but exploits it in order to discover the normal. He adds: 'I would like to reveal the "normal," the unknown, the unsuspected, the incredible, the enormous normal...'" R. Kuhn, "The Hermeneutics of Silence: Michaux and Mescaline." Yale French Studies #50. pp.135-36

instead of simply: G. Deleuze, Foucault. Minneapolis, 1988. p.22.

Perhaps in the future: W. Heisenberg, "The Representation of Nature in Contemporary Physics." Daedalus, No.3, 1958. p.101.

while in his study: T. McKenna, The Archaic Revival. San Francisco, CA., 1992. pp.174-75.

If you live: L. Eiseley, "The Star Dragon." In, The Invisible Pyramid. New York, 1970. p.7. (Eiseley died shortly before the comet's return.)

which catapults: C. Owens, "Earthwords." Quoting Robert Smithson, October 10. Fall, 1979. p.122.

A feathered head: J. Weishaus, "Untitled."

You sing in me: J. Weishaus, "You Sing In Me."

certain animals: M. Serres. "The Natural Contract." Critical Inquiry, Autumn 1992. p.6.

day of encountering: W. Clark, "Visualizations of Spirit" Albuquerque Journal, March 2, 1990. p.C-1.

existantial bewilderment: F. Jameson. In, A. Stephanson, "Regarding Postmodernism: A Conversation with Fredrick Jameson." Social Text, Fall 1987. p.33.

is made of scrapes: J. Hillman, The Dream and the Underworld. New York, 1979. p.40.

recyclable: "The world is like a revolving die, and everything turns over, and man changes to angel and angel to man, and the head to the foot and the foot to the head. So all things turn over and revolve and are changed, this into that and that into this, what is above to what is beneath and what is beneath to what is above. For in the root all is one, and in the transformation and return of things redemption is enclosed." Rabbi Nachman of Bratzlav. In, M. Buber, The Tales of Rabbi Nachman. Atlantic Highlands, NJ., 1991. p.35.

one might think: J. Derrida, "Biodegradables: Seven Diary Fragments." Critical Inquiry. Summer, 1989. p.815.

David Rosen: David H. Rosen, M.D., presently holds an endowed chair in Jungian psychology, at Texas A&M University, College Station, TX. He is also Professor of Humanities in Medicine, and the author of several books, including Transforming Depression (New York, 1992), and The Tao of Jung (New York, 1996).

Place: "little is known as yet about what we earlier called the 'sense of place' in man. Its secrets are still locked from us in our inadequate knowledge of nervous systems. Someday, when the study of our nervous systems has advanced sufficiently, a startling and perhaps revolutionary new import may reach geographical study in a full descriptive analysis of the sense of place."
"The Science of Geography." In, Report of the Ad Hoc Committee on Geography, National Academy of Science National Research Council, Washington D.C. 1965.

at the extreme: L. Bersani, Baudelaire and Freud. Berkeley, Ca. 1977. p.3

familiar shores: "According to quantum physics, all things, including our bodies, persist as they appear because they evoke a repetitive pattern of self-consciousness. We get used to seeing things this way and not any other. Observation seems the affect probabilities in a direct way." F.A. Wolf, "Through the Shaman's Doorway." Interview by R. Leviton, Yoga Journal July/August 1992. p.53

Those who ask: G. Mallasz, Talking with Angels. Einsiedln, Switzerland, 1992. p.35

Seung Sahn: Zen Master Seung Sahn (born Duk-In Lee, 1927) had moved to the U.S. in 1971, first to L.A., then to Providence, RI, where, while making his living repairing washing machines, he founded a temple, which later opened a branch in Cambridge. Seung Sahn took traditional training in Korea, where he made a 100-day retreat, eating only pine needles, dried and beaten into a powder, from which he temporarily turned a light shade of green. An Eco-Zen Master.

leopards break: F. Kafka. In, P. Goodman, Kafka's Prayer. New York, 1947. p.17

Alcibiades: E.S. Benton. From, "Rune." In, In Other Words. In MS.

slashes and curves: P.M.H. Atwater, The Magic Language of Runes. Santa Fe, NM., 1990. p.22

what he calls: He is speaking of Paul G. Bahn. In, B. Dickson, The Dawn of Belief, Tucson, AZ., 1990. p.122

our sacred sites: L. Watson, Gifts of Unknown Things. Rochester, VT. 1991. p.121

one has no conception: R. Motherwell. In, E. De Antonio & M. Tuchman, Painters Painting. New York, 1984. p.69

she don't paw at: J. Weishaus, "Helen's Cat." San Rafael, CA., 1972.

What sneaks past: J. Weishaus, "In Passing"

passerby
whose fate mingled
in all that between us
something happened

My voice
is addressed to whomever
passed by not far from me

(S. Mallarmé, Noces d'Hérodiade)

We set out: J. Weishaus, "Another Dream."