Couldn't breathe. Breathing air going in and coming out. Couldn't get enough. Took held still breath out he felt. Would really do it he told himself. Would.
Trouble. Nothing could ever be the same. Out of him in an ugly hissing. If he could just go back a few days. If he would have instead. If he had fallen asleep. If he could just go back in time so he didn't then none of this.